It's not easy
1.) Knowing that Grandpa is in the hospital tonight.
2.) Wondering if Grandma is okay
3.) Feeling debt snooping around my perimeters
4.) "Installing" questions about life
5.) Coming from trees and arriving at buildings
6.) Forgetting things
7.) Letting go of my temper
8.) Being american and privileged/ignorant
9.) Experiencing the overwhelming masses
10.) Drawing/writing a postcard every day

It was uneventful today, then I got the e-mail from Mom about grandpa. Grandpa used to smoke cigars, he used to play checkers with me, also he used to "pretend" like I was in trouble and give me fake spankings in front of the family. He was strong and I thought he had perfect teeth until I found out he'd been wearing dentures my whole life. I love you, Grandpa.